Dylan Mulvaney reflected on the trauma she now experiences whenever she openly shares her trans joy following the right-wing backlash to her partnership with Bud Light earlier this year. (See the video below.)

The transgender TikTok influencer shared these thoughts in a video posted Thursday celebrating her 500th day publicly out as a woman. In April, conservatives launched a bigoted campaign against her and Bud Light over her Instagram promo for the brand.

Today would be Day 500 of being a girl if I was still keeping up with that series, but I found myself in kind of an interesting position, Mulvaney said, referring to her being a girl TikTok series.

Because if I make the content that I want to make and freely share my trans joy, I subject myself to a lot more trauma, she continued. So lately, Ive chosen to scale back in order to protect my overall well-being, and it works. I am quite happy, but Im not doing what I love, so its kind of a bittersweet thing.

The 26-year-old, who later noted it was actually day 9,705 of being a woman for her, said in the video that she learned more since Day 365 than she did that whole first year.

Mulvaney added that trans and queer people came through for her in the past few months.

Its like when your friend is in a bad relationship and you wait for them to see the light and then they come running back to you well, that was the queer community for me, added Mulvaney, who said last month that Bud Light never reached out to her regarding the backlash.

You know, I gave myself and my identity to people who didnt deserve it, she said. And then the trans and queer community was there to pick me back up without pity.